Tag: fear

Someone with moderately functioning depression.

What others see:

• You usually seem ok at work (and otherwise socially), but anyone with a keen sense of awareness will notice an underlying sadness

• Tendency to withdraw for awhile when something goes wrong

• A reasonable presentation of self, but with little pieces here and there that indicate a lack of caring enough about life

• A general lack of sharp focus (not severe, but noticeable) surrounding you

• Someone who they’d never know is dangerously close to going over the edge

• A person who fluctuates being seeming normal and slightly broken

What others DON’T see:

• Living your life in a lot of darkness (both literally and figuratively)

• The wretched condition of your place since you just don’t care enough to clean

• How that condition of your place makes you turn others away even more than you otherwise would

• Breaking down into tears by yourself occasionally

• How you’re hiding as much of your newly excess belly as you can (because of how you’re not strong enough to change your poor diet habits, and you’ve lost the desire to be active physically)

• How you wish that you could have (and wanted) the balanced, healthy life that some around you do

• You living too much in the past, rarely enjoying the present, and doubtful about improving your future

• One of your few fears: never escaping the life summarized above. Until the day you die.