I sit here on the couch. Looking straight ahead into almost total darkness as midnight looms.
Haven’t even turned my TV on today. Or yesterday. Don’t care enough to. Maybe not until the pro football playoffs resume this weekend.
In a couple months, I will (once again) be leaving the city that I call home. This time likely for a good while. Family obligations make that necessary. But there’s no deluding myself: I wouldn’t have survived here yet for the long term regardless.
Add the last year here to the string of failures that I’ve experienced over the last 14.
Where exactly will I go? That’s still to be decided. Though the region will be where I grew up.
What will I do there? Also a mystery. Don’t know what I will do with myself going forward. As usual for recent years, the options will be very limited. I’ll have to figure something out.
But for now, I sit here alone. Taking a break from my new book on the kindle. It’s one of the those save-the-world action dramas that gives a needed escape for people with lives like mine.
Soaking in the final weeks of the preferred solitude in my home base.
Before stepping out into the unknown darkness again.